Table 19 wasn’t part of the celebration anyone cared about, it sat far from the fairy lights, nowhere near the elaborate floral centerpieces or the long head table where my parents sat like royalty basking in attention, instead it was hidden in a dim, forgotten corner of the patio, awkwardly squeezed between a humming generator and the swinging doors of the catering kitchen, the kind of place reserved for distant relatives no one remembered or plus-ones no one valued, and apparently, for me and my four-year-old daughter, Sophie.
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I smoothed down the fabric of my plain navy dress, something modest and store-bought that stood in quiet contrast to the designer gowns surrounding us, but I didn’t care about how I looked, not really, what hurt was seeing Sophie sitting beside me, her small legs swinging gently as she quietly colored on a cheap paper napkin with a pen she had borrowed, because no one had even thought to include her in the celebration with something as simple as a child’s activity kit.
I knew we weren’t wanted there, I had known it from the moment the invitation arrived, sent more out of obligation than love, and later reinforced by my mother’s cold phone call insisting I attend so the family wouldn’t have to answer uncomfortable questions about my absence, because to them I wasn’t just an inconvenience, I was a stain, a reminder of everything that didn’t fit their perfect image.
Five years ago, I had become pregnant and refused to name the father, choosing instead to leave my graduate program and raise my daughter on my own, and for a family obsessed with status, that decision had been unforgivable, they assumed I had been abandoned by some worthless man and carried that shame alone, never once imagining that the truth was far more complicated, and far more dangerous than they could handle.
The scent of expensive perfume cut through my thoughts before I even saw her, and when I looked up, there stood my mother, Margaret, flawless in a shimmering silver gown, a glass of champagne in her hand, her appearance perfect, her expression anything but warm.
She didn’t greet me, didn’t acknowledge Sophie, instead her gaze dropped to my hands as she leaned closer, her voice low and cutting.
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